- As a child and growing up I think that I have been having big dreams, dreams that I wanted to compare with my parents’ wishes for me. Wishes that my grandfather and grandmother saviors of my situation and condition by the grace of God. I didn’t just want to have a job, and any type. I have been willing to become somebody like they say: ” make something out of my life”. I wanted to become somebody that will solve most of the problems in my family. I really wanted to take care of my mother and grandmother before they pass. I wanted to make sure they had food, clothing and a roof over their heads, because I have seen how much these two women suffered. I wanted to one day buy a car and pick my two ladies in and travel to a place. Like you know : “Man proposes and God disposes” I did not have the chance to do much before these two fighters left the earth to my biggest surprise.
A day before I travel back to the USA and I was tired and stressed from what I had to do, say and see in my family. I cried almost everyday when I met some of my siblings because of the limitations. At some points, the needs are so much that you don’t even know where to start from, who to help and who not to help. That is where I call upon God for His spirit of discernment
Do you think that my journey to becoming somebody has come to an end?
One might think that since I lost these two women of my life, I would not have much to do. In the contrary, before they passed away, I became a woman and a mother. I see my dreams more bigger and my world has become more demanding with its challenges. But I am not afraid of challenges. They even guide me as for what to do and how to do things.
I thought after a degree in the Library Science, I could do enough. My nightmare started after that I graduated from the University Cheickh Anta Diop de Dakar in Senegal after I graduated from high school in Lome Togo. I had to look for job for two good years with no outcome. Then I decided to learn to sue clothes. In Togo I did not absolutely need to go to school for tailoring but I could just start as an apprentis and it worked. To cut the long story short, I worked as a Documentalist in Lome Togo as I was also making clothes (dresses) for women and young girls. Next I worked a debt collector. After that I have to move to the United States where I had to face the rude part of life. After I quite my carrier and moved to the land of opportunities, a way for me to help my parents, I thought. unfortunately, 6 months after I arrived, I lost my mother suddenly. Then I thought that God was no longer with me and my family because the transition in America was very difficult and disappointing: the weather, the language barrier, and the fact that one could not get a job with all the documents the we brought with my level of education, that I was dreaming to get an equivalent job as the one I had back in Togo. Since I learn from the difficulties, I have learned to become resilient and move with the flow in my new land. Looking back as I was growing up, I had my parents and grandparents till some times and I know that things were difficult. Now they are no more and they have left me many siblings. What should I do? Moreover, I am still chasing my dream; that of becoming somebody in order to wipe the tear of both my mother and grandmother, two women that suffered for me and that I saw in hardship among the others. But I know with an unshakable believe that with the Lord by my side, I am on my way to becoming somebody by God’s grace and for His own Glory. Let us be kind to one another like God and Jesus Christ thaugh us